Oh how many men would flip out if they ever knew it was me that was writing this blog now. Not that any of them will ever find out. Hopefully. I was always told to write a book about the people I have met and dated or been around. This is sort of my way to let it out because not one person in this world knows the complete story of what my life is like. It is both a good thing and a bad thing because I obviously keep a fair amount of secrets. I could not/can not keep it in a written journal because if anyone in my house were to find it my life as I know it would be over. I am an attached woman living two different lives.
I've always liked knowing that men were attracted to me, but who doesn't like to know that? i mean honestly. I'm a very sexual, yet a bit emotional at times, woman. I am meaning in the fact that I care for people in general, i love helping people and so therefore I have a tendancy of putting myself last, especially in relationships. In the little world I live in, well I know you can tell where I'm going with this.
So I was flipping through blogs one day and ran acrossed this one that was going on about this website for people that are already "attached" (AM), I thought, no way this place exsists. Oh it does. I joined, no profile picture and BAM within 24 hours I had a load of messages. Now don't get me wrong, up until now I had talked to, flirted with , dated and other things of that sort many men..even sometimes since I've been with him. I have never really sought out someone who was also attached to join me in my ventures.
I received a message from someone local, after a few sweet emails we met up at a local bookstore one evening. He was better looking than his pictures. We chatted for a while inside, he helped me find a book and then we headed out to our cars to have a chat. Standing there in the cold, after about an hour of talking, he grabbed me, pulled me near him and kissed me.Now let me tell you, I havent felt that comfortable and those kind of sparks in a long time. The strangest thing happened, both him and i expressed how much we wanted to see each other again and how much we have want each other. Go figure I have yet to see him again. Anytime he has been in town my SO has been home, so i couldn't leave and anytime I was free his SO would be with him. We write sometimes but they have become less and less. I guess that is what scheduling can do to you. lol
Since then so far, there are a few new people. One of which I have been talking to and texting, sending pictures back and forth and just as we were starting to talk more that whole "Tiger Woods" thing came out. Yeah, didn't really help our situation just for the simple fact that if anyone were to find out about him and i talking the way we have and just everything, well yeah, it'd be a big deal. So then the night before last i get a text from him, he told me that she had found out, he said she didn't know to what extent we had been talking but she had found out that he had been on AM and that there was someone with my name. So crap, that has slowed down.
I work a lot and I am in school, so as far as everyone is concerned, I have no time for anything else but since he has not been filling my life too consumed with what he does...well I've been finding the ventures elsewhere so to speak. The funny thing is my personal life in other aspects has gotten much better. It's like the minute I got on AM things started to change at home. I noticed a lot of them more so lately, so it makes me wonder, should I stop? I don't know.
Right now I'm on the fence because I really really reallyyyyyy enjoy passion, strong capable, agressive men. Something I don't really have at home. So we'll see how this all works out.
From now on no more talking about home. lol
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